Concerns on Internet Homeschooling Programs

GED or home school’ I need your help.’
I’ll start at the beginning.
In middle school I was in a high school credit/honors STEM program, I didn’t much care about my grades, and I struggled with yet undiagnosed metal disorders, so though I was capable of doing the work, my grades were low for the most part.
Despite this, I was accepted into the IB program at a local high school. I tried to kill myself the first week of school. I missed a ton of days, was socially withdrawn and isolated and ending up withdrawing before the first nine weeks was over, receiving “incomplete” for all my grades. After this, it was decided that I would enroll in a less stressing program at a different high school. However, I got a computer and the plan changed to doing online classes with FLVS. I was horrid at it. It was terribly hard for me to keep focus on the computer, and some of the assignments were absolutely ridiculous. So I stopped doing anything productive at all in my life. I gained twenty pounds and spent most of my time sleeping, eating, or just wasting my time on the internet. I disgusted myself, I hated the feeling that I wasn’t normal.
I had these feelings despite being on antidepressants. I missed a psychiatrist appointment, and was without my pills for the net three months. The feelings of not being normal continued to grow. I insisted on enrolling in Plant again. I insisted that I could do it this time, be normal, get good grades, socialize. But I couldn’t. I was extremely shy, and socially awkward. I sat by myself at lunch for 4 and a half weeks. I was scrapping by on C, D and F grades, talking to only a handful of people. Sometimes almost having panic attacks at lunch. So again I withdrew.
Fast-forward to now. Homeschooling on workbooks and books from the library. My mom doesn’t really like it. She doesn’t understand.
I have a couple of options, and this is where you guys come in. I need your help and advice.
I can continue homeschooling, eventually make my own diploma and transcript, and hope to be accepted to either University of Tampa, or USF.
OR.
I can get my GED, get an associates degree at HCC, and then transfer to either of those schools.
I don’t know what to do.
I like the GED plan, I was very positive about it, but my Yale educated (albeit bi-polar, and sometimes a drunk, who with his education, has become a waiter) says that an associate degree (in aquaculture) from HCC would be the equivalent to marine biology 101 at any real college. He says I wont know anything, and wont be prepared come time when I enroll In a higher university.

What should I do’
I don’t know anyone to ask.
Thank you for you help.